"I would be an Atheist if it wasn't for God"

So the other day I was wacthing a really great movie with my wife. It was called Fireproof. There were several great lines from several different actors. The movie made me think about my relationship with God, as well as my wife.

I wonder if I really treat my wife with the respect that she deserves. I know I love her and care for her, but does she need more than those from me? I decided that she does. So I have begun to think about what I can do to treat her better. This week leads up to valentines day, what can I do to show love. Well, today I started to clean the house while she was at work. I also did a few loads of laundry. I know it is not a lot, but to her it may as well be a million bucks. There are a few other things that I should also do, but those I should do with her. Like pray each morning, and read the scriptures together. To a Godly woman like my wife these are priceless. A wise teacher once showed me a diagram about God and marriage. It showed a triangle, God was at the top and I was at the bottom right and my spouse was the bottom left. As we drew closer to God, we naturally drew closer to each other. This leads me to my next thought.

My relationship with God. Have I truly been serving Him, or has it been lipservice? I really want to beleive that I truly serve God with my whole heart. How can I know though? Yes I read my Bible daily. Yes, I pray constantly. Yes, I go to Church regularly. These are all great things, but are they just lipservice? I recently heard a teaching on being filled with the Holy Spirit. If a person is "filled", then signs and wonders will follow. So to serve God with my whole heart means that I have the Holy Spirit alive inside of me. And if He is living in me then signs and wonders will follow me. WHERE ARE MY SIGNS AND WONDERS???? I have only once to my knowledge spoken in tongues, I have never healed the sick, I have never raised the dead. I want to do all this and more just as Jesus promised me. I WANT IT!!!!!!