Insomnia = Time with God

So here I am again, fighting with insomnia. I have not had this trouble for a while, but it has surfaced again. I used to watch television, but at 0300 there is nothing on of value, (is there ever really anything of value on television?). I decided to read the Bible. I started in January to read through the Bible in one year, but the last few days (okay, week) I have not been reading. I thought that I would catch up. I finished Exodus and started in to Leviticus, thinking for sure this would put me to sleep. Wow, have you ever actually read Leviticus, and the laws regarding the Israelites, what is clean and unclean and how they have to go about purifying themselves. WOW what and ordeal. I am so thankful that Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior paid the ultimate sacrifice as the "Spotless Lamb who takes away the sin of the world." Praise the Lord!!!! Who am I that Jesus would pay the ultimate sacrifice, his life. God could have just as well said, 'I think I will keep my Son here in heaven with me and let those people down there keep sacrificing burnt offerings to me.' That would have been easier, but instead he gave us Jesus. For Him to "let" Jesus to die on the cross and then be buried in the ground for three days (in ancient times three days was the official time frame for a person to really be dead), and then to ascend into Heaven, only to let him come back to earth to show himself to his followers before being taken back to sit at the right hand of the Father, is the ultimate symbol of love. God is an amazing being and I am humbled in His presence. I pray that everyone alive today comes to know Jesus as their personal Lord and Savior. I am glad that I had insomnia tonight. I would not have spent this quality time with my Lord.

God works when we least expect

I have been trying to remodel my basement. Things have really been slow and to make things more difficult (in man standard) I have wanted to put in some old fashioned 5-panel doors that would match the rest of the house. I have priced some new doors and they are well over $200 each (I need two). That is more than I am able to spend. I have even put out want ads on the internet, with no responses. I have also thought about trying to make the doors myself. That may never happen either. I decided to give it to God at the start of this project. Well tonight, I did not really want to go to one of my dad's rentals. But I did, and what do you know, there was a 5-panel door stuck back in the corner in the attic. Praise the Lord!!!!! One found, one to go. I am trusting God for this one as well.

"I would be an Atheist if it wasn't for God"

So the other day I was wacthing a really great movie with my wife. It was called Fireproof. There were several great lines from several different actors. The movie made me think about my relationship with God, as well as my wife.

I wonder if I really treat my wife with the respect that she deserves. I know I love her and care for her, but does she need more than those from me? I decided that she does. So I have begun to think about what I can do to treat her better. This week leads up to valentines day, what can I do to show love. Well, today I started to clean the house while she was at work. I also did a few loads of laundry. I know it is not a lot, but to her it may as well be a million bucks. There are a few other things that I should also do, but those I should do with her. Like pray each morning, and read the scriptures together. To a Godly woman like my wife these are priceless. A wise teacher once showed me a diagram about God and marriage. It showed a triangle, God was at the top and I was at the bottom right and my spouse was the bottom left. As we drew closer to God, we naturally drew closer to each other. This leads me to my next thought.

My relationship with God. Have I truly been serving Him, or has it been lipservice? I really want to beleive that I truly serve God with my whole heart. How can I know though? Yes I read my Bible daily. Yes, I pray constantly. Yes, I go to Church regularly. These are all great things, but are they just lipservice? I recently heard a teaching on being filled with the Holy Spirit. If a person is "filled", then signs and wonders will follow. So to serve God with my whole heart means that I have the Holy Spirit alive inside of me. And if He is living in me then signs and wonders will follow me. WHERE ARE MY SIGNS AND WONDERS???? I have only once to my knowledge spoken in tongues, I have never healed the sick, I have never raised the dead. I want to do all this and more just as Jesus promised me. I WANT IT!!!!!!